I'm sorry it's not a good day. Trust in God. Just give it to him.
There are things you can't control, like what goes on when you're not around. Your son will be ok. What would it be like for you to give up thinking about that and think about other things you like to do. Force yourself to think about your H and that situation for a certain time each day, and but not during any other part of the day. Maybe even twice a day for a time, but then to let it go during the rest of the time--setting limites. Do you think you would be willing to do that?
