In the process

[newmama]

ok so I also have a thread on MA and I forget what I post where!

THANK YOU for comforting me a little, CW and Awest although I am not comforted hearing that he will do stuff like this AGAIN! sigh...;)

just so you know, I am NOT going to engage in skiing with zoobrew if I end up going-- do you realize that has been causing me way more anxiety than actually seeing zoobrew again? lol! You would think I would be obsessing about the next date and how to communicate or act before then, but NO- I have been anxious over all the logistics that go into skiing for the first time without gear and with someone who is an expert! Now that I have made that decision, I feel much relief and can focus on other stuff.

Ugh...am looking forward to Christmas with S and seeing my family but I am not motivated at all to figure out what the heck to get them for gifts. I have run dry this year on clever ideas or "the perfect" gift. SO I will be going the basket route, I guess. That is kind of fun to do. A basket for my dad and his wife (who hasn't reacted warmly to any gift I have given her although she posts quotes from Mother Theresa and other saints on her FB wall each day), and one for my mom and her H. They are drinkers (aka alcoholics!) so I bet they'd be thrilled with a bunch of beer or booze but that would be "enabling" more than I already do, I guess! Ok sorry I am not in a bad mood- I am just annoyed that

1) my mom has not returned my texts, phone calls, or emails over the last 3 weeks

2)my dad wasn't willing to work with my schedule for when I have S and can bring him to HIS house across town (as always). I proposed Christmas eve morning and he said Thurs eve would be better- after dinner. DUH! first of all, S is with exH then. Second of all, even if I switched, S' bed time is 7-7:30! He lives 45 minutes away so I wish he would remember the baby days!

When he first said that Christmas Eve morning wouldn't work I responded with "tell me what time works for you."

I don't know if that was playing games-- I was trying to be direct and NOT go back and forth. Just basically "tell me what you want!"

I called him and he was "concerned" about my message- was I mad at him? I explained that I had a complicated schedule to work around between him, exH, my family and S' sleep and nap schedule and that although I understand that he is busy, I just get overwhelmed by all of the coordinating sometimes. He felt bad and compromised on Sunday after Christmas in the late afternoon.

3) my aunt wants to micromanage my plans for Christmas at MY house ....

Happy Holidays!