Why do you keep getting mad at W for not responding or acting the way YOU want? You are still giving her way too much power over the situation and your emotions. You heard it multiple times you need to stop trying to control things. You cant. All you are doing is filling your "resentment" bucket. That is not healthy and will lead to further problems down the road. You need to only accept what she gives you because right now that is her way of communicating her feelings. Even if you fake the not being mad infront of her, it does no good until you actually let her control herself. Again read other peoples stories here. You are sooooo lucky but you cant even see it. Look I know the frustration of feeling like she is rejecting you. God do I know. But she chose you not the OM. She is giving in small ways. Stop getting mad for what she is not doing. That will come in time. A word of warning SBH if you do not address this it will come back to bite you. In fact the only reason Im at this point with my W is that like you I had a lot of anger for what my W didnt do. It came out in unproductive ways. You maybe keeping it together now (as I did for months) but you are fighting a losing battle.
Good luck and I would bring this up with your IC ASAP.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
