Positively moving forward

[awest1217]

I took a long nap today and the practice went well.

Mishka, I don't like taking anything because I have S everyday, but if I didn't get sleep for a long time. Hopefully now that everything is calming down I will be ok.

NM, I know that I wasn't exactly mean and I think it is all part of my healing because I am able to stand up for myself. I also agree that I have come to terms with that I did wrong, but no one deserves to be betrayed and left. I also do feel not continuing to analyze the A is healing. It is a long long time, but we are healing and there seems to be a light at the end of the tunnel.

As for the anniversary, I kept busy. I cried a little when I woke up, but otherwise I was ok and I had plenty of people checking in. After work, H got S and I went to church to set-up. Then a small dinner and watched some TV. Then S came home. H cried a bit when he heard S say his line. Then off to the Christmas party.

I had some sad memories like being at church decorating like I did 5 years ago. H is coming to the program tomorrow. It might be hard then, but I am doing ok just not focusing on it. I did get a cute new dress for tomorrow since I will be up front so I will be looking and feeling my best.