I'm so glad you got help. sandi2 is incredibly wise and compassionate.
I understand that exhaustion of depression. I'd rather be vomiting. Just be kind to yourself, and tell yourself that this will pass, because it will. And allow yourself the rest without the guilt. The down, the rest--can all just be healing.
I read somewhere years ago--it might have even been a book, that someone considered their nervous breakdown, their nervous BREAKTHROUGH, because it initiated change--a new life.
You are going to get that too. It's kind of like the bulb that's planted in the fall that has to go through the dark winter. And when the spring starts to show the green, and then the flower, just catch the green an nurture it. Let it grow.
Kind of girly/philosophical, but I think you'll get it. It's OK to be where you are, but it's important to take the help, and let the healing begin.
Adding my prayers and good thoughts for you.
sg
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001
