No longer holding on to what I know is gone.

[NNP1965]

well mostly I am numb. I had a bit of a panic when we first got there and I was in one little room with my lawyer and xh was in another little room with his. My L kept saying if you don't want this we don't have to do it today... but then a peace came over me and I knew I wanted to go thru with it. xh showed his butt a little bit, but it was all pretty inconsequential... I gotta say though, his L (actually is guardian ad litem) was a real D*CK!

He did stand by the agreement we made. I am happy with the settlement. I doubt he is but he should be too as he gets all the things of value that he looked at as "his" anyway. I could have made him pay me for some of it, but I wanted it over.

So it's done, I am divorced... I don't feel any different. I guess I am waiting for the realization to sink in.