we go through all of this.. and we heal. but their are layers beneath that need work as well - but they hide underneath our cave.
by opening up my heart a tiny bit - it has brought out a place that i need more healing. NOTHING to do with my x.. everything to do with who I have been. the unhealthy side of me that was who met my x.
i was extremely co-dependent LONG before i met my x. i have healed from the hurt of him. .. will probably always have to work on trust and other issues.. but this part of me is beyond him.
as a co-dependent person I let others rule my value, my worth. no more. it is time to heal that person. it is time for me to continue to like who I am and who i have become. the heart side of it caused me to get all tangled up and confused. i was really ok being single and alone etc. AND I need to be there but know that i can still "feel"...
this is going to be one very interesting journey!!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
