I am stuck in the addiction again of looking at my h history on computer and it really hurts me. But i feel like i have to know what is going on. I dont know why i do things that i know will hurt me.
I am just very hurt that he will be spending xmas with ow and new years eve is his birthday when we met 32 yrs ago. He is not the great person that he use to be. I use to put him on a pedastal.
I am sorry that you are hurting so darn much. Sometimes when we put someone on a pedestal, when we make them our whole lives, it is just a bitter pill to swallow when we find they are just humans and not infallible. Perhaps that's part of it, you haven't been able to come to grips with that. May I ask you what do you do to help yourself deal with these feelings?
On another note, congrats on the A in medical terminology. I took that a long long time ago, and I loved it.
I went to a divorce / separtaion spiritually based support group and i feel 100% better. It makes you feel better when you hear other peoples stories and you dont feel so alone and they understand the pain of betrayal. They are having another meeting next week and everyone is bringing cake, or chips or soda for a party, meeting, and comedy videos. I was really afraid to go but i forced myself. I am trying to face my fears. It was the second time that I went. Are you working now? Hope you and your family are well.
Well, it sounds like a good support group. I've never been to one, so I don't really know much about them. What do y'all help each other to do? No, I am not working, but am considering some possibilities of selling handmade items online. My H and S are doing well and looking forward to Christmas. We have a niece in the hospital, so it's a bit sad this year. Would you consider speaking to your H only for a moment, about S and be pleasant. If you feel that going dark with him and not having any contact except for texting, is not helping, wouldn't that be worth a try? I don't think it could hurt at this point, do you? I know it's hard to swallow your pride and speak to a man who betrayed you (I know how you feel), but the first step is always the hardest.
Hi How are you. Today is not that great. You are blessed to have your h home with you. I wish I didnt tell my h to leave when i found out he went back to ow in Feb. My s went out with h last night and then they went to my mil house where he is living. I think he and ow are living in the basement because mil has to have a nurse live in now and she took spare bedroom. I wonder if h keeps ow hidden in the basement when my s goes there because i told h i never want my s around her. i told my s if he ever goes there and she is there to call me and ill come get him. I wish h missed me around the holidays like Im missing him so much. mil or h did not ask s how i am like they usually do probably because of court letter h got this week. I dont know if i shou;d follow thru with d the value of my house is dropping everyday like everyones and i know real estate is not a good investment now. but i cant sell it unless i d him. but then he would marry ow and that would kill me to. this is a no win situation and i am very sad.
