Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Detaching is becoming increasingly difficult. I've got a good C who is basically saying tread water while I try to work on things, the holidays are coming up and its 10 days away and now that it looks like it'll be family holidays, I need to buy a couple things for my W, thing have become eerily reminiscient to the past...after the MC session we are extremely cordial and friendly and good friends again...though nothing much more...and she still has OM...so detaching...wow.

Last night I just kept trying to tell myself to quit thinking about anything I cannot control. That is probably the best I can do at this point.

I could see myself going numb. Part of me would actually welcome it. It might be a good defense mechanism right now.

Thanks again for all your words and thoughts