I agree with ED (doesn't sound too good does it? :/)
Follow her actions now not her feelings, she will use her feelings on you to test your resolve. Her testing you is a good thing, she wants to push you too see how strong you are, are you a man she can trust to do the right thing.
Notice how she reacted when you called her out on this - arms crossed (defensive - she knows this is wrong) and crying (maybe he will rescue me, again.) She needs to feel you letting her go, you were being her band-aid so she couldn't feel the wound she has. Let her choose what path she takes (google: Sir Gawains Wedding).
Be ready to be tested, her alternating between nice and angry within seconds. Listen, validate and callout mind-reading when appropiate. She will tell you, "I was all ready to come back until you said I can't see you anymore, see nothing has changed." She will test your boundary, she really wants to know you can stand up to her feelings.
It's OK for you to feel lonely and confused. Once you see things playing out, you will gain confidence.
Now have a plan for you.
Physical- working out, diet, sleep, hydrate. Manage your energy. Mental- ask for help, read up on attraction, intimacy and how women communicate, make a list of all that you are grateful for Emotional- have a network of friends to call when you lose it, take your phone apart so you don't call her when lonely. Stay social over the holidays - choose to improve yourself thru this. volunteer, sing Christmas Carols, smile at people Spiritual- pray for wisdom,discernment, strength, and clarity.
She needs the space to process her feelings into thoughts. Love her enough to let her think about what she is doing. All the while you become the best man you can - catnip. Be Sir Gawain.
Strength and Honor Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
