It'a All About Me

[Sanderika]

Hi Irma, thank you...

I am doing just as you. Believing and praying that we will be the lucky recipients of a divine intervention.

I am a stander, I have reasons to be one. I feel it is what I am supposed to do. I feel God has led me to this place. If I have been led here, I will get through it.

I have actually become more spiritual in the past 5 years along with my many other changes. I have a feeling that there is a higher power guiding my choices and H's.

I am one who, first hand, has experienced the once hardened heart of her husband has now softened and visibly and emotionally seen the majestic mountain move. I could not have done all this alone.

My H's MLC was triggered by two very difficult situations in his life. My H lost his mother to cancer in 2004, we watched her go from a vibrant, full of life lady to a gravely ill woman with terminal cancer inside of a three month period. AND, two weeks before her death my H was burned in a propane explosion, this was an incident that forced H to face his own mortality.

At the same time I was going through a major long term depression and was nearly crippled by the effects and influencing everyone in my world to turn against me, you see after they tried in vain to help me they gave up on me. It was H's actions of leaving me that triggered me to change. It's a very sad story overall. I have posted much of it in my previous threads. It really is all water under the bridge right now. I want to put the past behind me and move into the future with a clear vision of what is and what can be done in this wonderful life.

I plan to leave my options open as far as H goes, I have decided that I would rather have him in my life in the capacity it is (as a friend) rather than shut him out of it completely. I think H wants the same.

GAG and others are probably right on this one....

H and I need to divorce to clear the slate and be able to see what the future holds for us whether it be apart and with others or as friends with a possibility that it could blossom into more.

Irma, my prayers and thoughts are with you, I understand exactly what you are experiencing.

Sanderika