today was not good my son is depressed again and i text h and said son didnt go to school because he is heart broken for what h is doing. I know i shouldnt have text him but i get very sad when son hurts. i found out after i did that h is looking to buy ow a used car and they are buying more furniture. i think they r going to fl. together soon this is very sad. i was suppose to go to support group tonite but i didnt want to leave my son alone. I was close to mil but sometimes we didnt agree on things. I use to drive them to dr and to the grocery store every week when fil couldnt drive any more. My mil was very instrumental in us restoring our m last time but we arent speaking now unfortunately. i sent her flowers 2 mos ago when she was in hospital for pneumonia.
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I'm so sorry this is hurting you so much. Of course you know texting yoruH in that manner pushes him further away. Do you think that your H not being home for Christmas is the full reason your son is depressed? Are there other things going on for him? Do you think your sadness weighs in on him?
I think you did the right thing staying with him when he's depressed. It may help him even more if you can heal a little more yourself. You show the way. He doesn't have the coping skills yet that you hav, and while you may not think you have it in you right now--I believe you really do. You've been here a long time, and you've helped others as well. It would be a wonderful christmas gift for your son.
