It'a All About Me

[Sanderika]

Hi Rabbit,

Thank you, thank you, thank you....

I vented my thoughts here but did not act on them. I have not made contact with H and won't. I will leave that task to him when he is able and ready. I will be ready with my sexiest look and H will get the same usual sweet friendly and very pleasant Sanderika for sure.

I worked today and kept myself very busy. I had a good day until I returned home and got my mail. The court has sent us the next schedule. H will receive this today too.

I have to be in court for the Final Hearing on the divorce on Thursday, January 13, 2011 at 9:00am. So all, this is the day that H and I could be divorced. I am very shaken by reading this paper. It has actually sent me way down tonight. It is hard to believe that the courts look at this as such a simple endeavor. I am in turmoil and this is not simple or easy, it hurts a lot. I can't really believe after all my 5 plus years of fighting for my marriage that I am even reading this paper tonight.

I wonder what H will think and feel when he opens his letter. Since he was not in court on Monday and he has not called me to ask how it went he does not have any advance knowledge what to expect to read.

I am soooo sad that after nearly 32 years together we are now looking at the end. I know what you are going to say next, it doesn't mean it's the end. Odds are not in favor of reconciliation post divorce.

How do I stop this now??????????

Thank you to all my friends,

Sanderika