Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

At this point I am just overwhelmed. Stress of holidays and round 2 of this at the exact same time it happened.

the first time the W came back it was because of what you said.

The C's point is interesting though...basically that working on this R is going to be easier and better in the long term than working on the other R with OM. That she has the ability to get the spark and feelings back between us.

I need to talk to the C alone. Figure out what she is really trying to do. See if she is working on breaking the addiction.

I also, having been down this road and the piecing road, recognize it all too well. The only reason she doesn't have feelings for me is because of the fogged out feelings for OM. Seen that one a few times now...

But...
I don't know how much I have left in me at this point...
I really don't. For a 1/2 a day I say I can this for a couple of weeks...then a few hours later, I say enough is enough.

But thanks for the words. I need to think about that, pray about that...