Piecing

[FindingMyVoice]

Thank you for the suggestions dbmod - appreciate the input. Just an update, didn't really want to start yet another thread if that's ok?

In Oct my IC told me she felt I was mildly depressed and recommended I go on ADs. I resisted for quite some time but finally relented last week. When I went to my Dr they also gave me anxiety meds. I've been on them both for a week now and am getting more sleep but still just feeling mostly side effects - times I'm really, really sad, exhausted, and sometimes nauseous. Guess it takes quite some time for it before it will start supporting the ongoing therapy, in starting to change some of my negative thinking patterns. But at least I don't feel like quite such a loser for not being able to change some of those patterns on my own.

I'm scared my H does not believe I need it because he doesn't seem to respond much if I bring it up. When I first told him, he seemed concerned and made a little joke - which helped make me smile. But I do wish I could really talk with him about it; I think though that he's reached his limit with serious talk. And he's got his own stuff he's working through too. So in a lot of ways I'm on my own again. But if I didn't trust what I thought before, I really don't now. Trying not to dwell on it though; just get through xmas and waiting till the ADs start doing their thing, if indeed, they do. So that's where I'm at. Trying to have patience and faith. Thanks. FMV.