Well, I needed to start a new thread. Im in a new place. H is gone. Living his life, I should be living mine as well.
It is not easy when he still wants to "cake eat".
Cant figure it out. Our marriage failed because he was a cheater, liar, dishonest, unloyal, and an unfaithful person.
So what I can figure out is why is he still doing it? Why is he with this new OW. One who he was talking to and trying to "help" when he was still home with me, why is he able to still cheat, on her?? He is ready, willing and able to have sex with me. He wants to. He is in a new relationship and wants to cheat on her. Did he not see how this distroyed our marriage in the end, yet he continues the same pattern?
It just boggles my mind. When all this first happened 4 years ago....when he was with the first OW, the one that will stay burned in my brain for eternity, I ended up being the OW while he was with her...she found out, several times she took him back after finding out this. She always had suspiscion and didnt trust him because of that. She found out once because i told her....he blames me instead of himself for messing up that R with the OW. SO, why do this again??? Even when we were trying to work things out for months before i let him come home last year, he was with OW and they were women who were telling him they loved him, he had been with me, I had no idea that these OW even existed...and he was with me....what is wrong with him?? He will continue to keep on doing this. I pray for him to see he needs help. He thinks he is just being selfish, I dont believe he sees it as a problem, although he told me that he needed help for this a long time ago. Guess he thinks he cant be fixed now?
These things are just laying heavy on my mind lately. Not a good way to try and move forward, but gotta process these things so I can try to move forward
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
