GAL with waw. Stuck bad.

[habitacker]

I am not sure I am DBing. I am just being the man I want to be, and not the angry person I have been. I feel great. Everything feels awesome except for my marriage. I am going to read DR again and freshen up. Heck, I am not positive she is WAW. All I know is she says it's over and she doesn't show any interest in working on the M. No books, No MC, No R talk unless initiated by me, and that will not happen again. Not good results.
Sometimes I can't believe I actually wish there was an A. It would help explain things. I just don't see it though. I have looked a lot, especially at the beginning.
1. When I asked about OM, she hesitated and did not want to tell me something because she said it was mean. But I made her. She said, not only was she not interested in me, but she was not interested in any man at this time.
2. Early on I snooped. Sometimes I still do a little. Nothing on phone or computer. Everything on computer is usually looking up recipes and stuff like that.
3. Off work at 6. Always home by 7. 20 minute drive.
4. Fridays are her day off. 3 year old daughter stay with her every other friday. Daughter stays at babysitter till 1 p.m. on every other friday while wife goes shopping. Always comes back with groceries,etc.
5. She has pretty high morals. Does not go out,does not drink,does not smoke, etc. etc.

As for friends pushing her towards the single life. From day 1 I asked if anyone knew about our S. She said that her personal life is nobody else's business. She has never really talked to anyone about anything. If she does have a fault in this, that would be it. Bad communication. It scares me so much that I think she will not come to talk to me about R if the time comes.

The only thing I found weird looking for an A, was that we have not had anything physical in over 3 months. She is still on the pill. She says she never thought about it, and it is just habit, and it keeps things regular. Cramps,etc. I don't know about this. Could use a womans point of view on that.
Anyway, If there is an A? It's not much of one. I just don't see where she would even have the time.

One more thing, I am the only man she has ever been with. I don't think this matters,but I will put it out there.