I think you gave me some of your bad feelings yesterday. After this thread and after I went home. I started to get very angry at the situation all over again. It didn't help that my W decided to just go to bed w/o even telling me (not like she needs to, but she usually does at least that). So I did what any good DBer would do, I worked on myself. I went for a run on the treadmill and played some Xbox. Enjoyed my time by myself. Of course, this morning I was still a tad upset at the situation. But I did NOT let her see this, as with last night.
Then she called me today. I said I was sorry for being grumpy (because I wanted to head off something) she said that she didn't notice which was my goal and that if I was it was probably because I was feeling burned out by the situation, she then said that she was too. It was so nice to hear that.
I have tried to learn that you cannot know what your W is thinking and that if you try to do it will drive you crazy. Take last night, my W was probably just really tired and I don't she was looking to get back at me. But I took it that way for some reason. It was stupid to do. But it's a learning process.
I then had an other kick butt run at lunch (I'm training for the Boston Marathon in April). I also learned that idle hands are no good and I ordered an acoustic guitar. I've wanted to learn how to play and now that I have some free time in the evenings, it seems like a no brainer.
I hope things keep progressing for your. Remember that it's not a straight line and there will be ups and downs.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
