I saw stbx this weekend. He was saying how he is sorry for things he's done, how he regrets it very much and would do anything to take it back, he misses me, etc. We hung out and went to a movie. He said he is afraid the past will happen again. Me, too. He said, Do you think we can forget all the things in the past? And I said, I don't know.
He asked what I was doing for Christmas and I told him prob spending it with my fam an dhe said he'll prob take a sleeping pill and be in bed all day... said Xmas isn't the same for him now that I don't live there and decorate and etc...
Yesterday he messaged me to be careful driving, that the roads are unsafe, and later "good luck" on one of my exams.
Found out recently that my cousin who is in his late 30s and married for a good 10-14 years--his wife left him for another man. Left her kids (3) and everything. My aunt was saying how she thoguht he was literally going to go insane. I can't imagine the pain he is going through and yet I can relate on some level (sans children & her leaving him to live w/ someone else). I want to hug him.
