I know you are, but be thankful for your wonderful family. It seems to me that they have formed a protective cocoon around you, and that is as it should be. Your son, you are teaching him what it is to be a man. What a man should be. You seem to have each other's back.
My daughters have learned this from me if nothing else-depend on no one but yourself. They do a good job at it, too. I hate that lesson was taught to them by my mistakes in life, but there it is. They do see me as strong and independent, and able to get on with my life. They have also seen the crushed side of me.
I think you are doing a great job. We've come far, you and I. The Holidays? They are just another day on the calender. We will get through them as easily as any other, because we won't let ourselves be dragged down through them.
Hang in there Irish, we are going to make it through this.
