Yep. It comes from all the rejection, condemnation, hurt, shame, fear, etc. It comes in waves. Just keep the focus on you.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER