(((((hugs)))))) to you and the babes...

WHY are you looking through those things, btw?! Box them and store them if you want them for the kids. Give the box to a relative to hold onto and give to the kids when they are older, if you want.

You know when things are going to hurt.

And what does the Doc say when you tell him it hurts when you do that?
Well, stop doing that!

Now, I know that tomorrow is a hurt that you can't avoid, so try to do something silly and unexpected, sometime during the day. Your kids are the perfect age to bounce right into a giggle fit without skipping a beat, and it can lighten the mood. Yes, it could be somber, serious and sad all day. Or, you can do something to change that. Up to you to choose (and yes, sometimes I just want to be sad - but it can be a choice).