Barb, I'm so sorry. I wish I could give you a hug. I know how you feel. Please try to detach, I see you are very reactive, but I don't blame you. I think you still have a small opening there when you said he is still questioning. You know that your questioning about OW and your snooping pushes him away. Do not look into his stuff anymore, do not snoop, do not talk about OW. I forced myself to do that at the height of my H involvement with OW. Call all your friends, confide in them, get into the car and cry by yourself, scream, talk to God. I did all that. My H does not even try to hold me when I withdraw. He does not even show any softness for me. At least yours does. But he is still with me now, even after I told him to go. I implemented all those techniques and as a result, our household was calmer. It tore me apart to know he had an A and was in contact with OW all the time but as I detached, it affected me less (still bad, especially at times, but made me able to control).
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go
