Am I piecing? Just can't tell...

[Sad_but_happy]

I agree Harrier. So funny, my W looks better then she ever has as well. It's the mid-life crisis thing. She only wears skimpy sexy underware, always high heels, fitted tops and hip hugger bottoms.

I am almost confident (can you ever really be 100% sure) the EA is over but with only 40 days since NC it's too early to say if she would go back. Also OM is 32, a professional, has his own home, and not married so that puts me at and even bigger disadvantage.

When she finally broke it off she was so angry and unhappy. She thought about him all the time and you could see the pain in her face. It appears that that initial grieving process has died down and she is much happier day to day.

So I am in wait and see mode... She still talks of sharing a life with me and doing things together but I am so on edge that I question if it's for the right reasons. And if it's for the wrong reasons do I actually what to share a life with HER?

Things that make you go hmmm.

This pit in my stomach is killing me. See, this crap is not healthy! And this is when I question if its all worth it.

But I will go home, smile, play with my kids, talk to my wife as if all is peachy, act "as if", and quietly die inside... And that sums up the life of a DB'er...