"Forest i know im hard to deal with, but im going to do this starting today."

Honestly you have been quite tame. You are not hard to deal with.

Don't just implement a plan to prove a point. Do it because it helps you move forward.

Relax
Eat
Think
Act normal
React.. Smartly.
Do something different.
Emulate.
Do Work.

Lets get "RETARDED" in here.