Positively moving forward

[awest1217]

I have grown up in a house where homemade cookies are always around so it isn't a big deal for me. I will have one or two a day, but that is it.

Today was a 2 hour delay. It was nice because I was able to get a few things done around the house before I left for work. S got to sleep in (I still got up about the same time). All is well. I even got to work early and was able to get some extra stuff done here.

One big thing right now for me is I am definitely ready to move on relationship wise. I don't want to jump into anything, but I have been without H for almost 2 years, we haven't acted as a couple in 1 year so I have had my time. I am just ready to get out there I think. I really miss having the companionship. Someone to shovel the snow, to talk to when I get home, to cuddle next to when it is cold. I haven't had any of those things in 2 years. Finding a guy...difficult, but I do have all my friends looking so maybe by Valentine's day I will at least get to go on a date. I really think I am ready because when I talk about H, I don't get mad very often. I only get mad when he procrastinates making me spend more money on my L or when he is being stupid about S. When it comes to us or even him and OW, it doesn't bother me as much. Will I still feel angry if I see them together? Sure. But I don't think it will really bug me until she starts being around S (if that ever happens), and then it is about S and not H. I am almost over H so that is good. I even found a card I wrote to H years ago stuffed somewhere and it didn't even upset me. Definitely getting better.