I was on my way to class this morning (I train Jiu-Jitsu at 6:30 a.m.) and had the unfortunate experience of getting stuck behind a slow moving truck, spewing black exhaust smoke. While I was examining my options, I realized that it was a fitting metaphor for my relationship with my wife:
My relationship with my wife is like following closely behind this big truck; it's toxic; I can't breath. So, I examined my options:
1) I can continue to follow the big truck and choke on it's exhaust.
2) I can get aggressive and look for an opportunity to pass the big truck, get ahead of it and find some open road and fresh air.
3) I can slow down or pull over and let the big truck move ahead without me. The smoke will clear eventually and I can continue on my own path, unobstructed.
I chose option two, of course. That is my nature. So why do I stay behind this truck in my personal life? Am I expecting the truck to change? Is it realistic to expect the truck to stop smoking or to go faster? I have no control over the truck; I only have control over myself. i need to find some open road and clear air. That is my nature!
