Lying and Cheating

[midlifewife]

I do know the truth, he has always been the pursuer in our R, he drove me nuts almost suffocating me with his affections. I hate that he thinks that right now, even if it is mlc, I would love to wake up from this nightmare.
He has filed for D, I dont have papers yet but I know they are out there. If we go through this process and get divorced, am I silly for continuing to hope for us. I feel like that is the end but I am not done. I asked him for more time, I have given him this year to decide what he wants and would like some time to adjust to his decision before we finalize it. He said no, he wants to just move on. I dont, I dont want to fight about kids or money or any of it. I can tell you I have done it all wrong this year, no matter how much I read about leaving him alone and not begging, pleading and convincing, not accusing or questioning, I did it all and he has had enough so he filed. I cant undo it now and can only try to give space now and hope it will not be too late. We have a 90 day waiting period in my state. I am just afraid he is too damn stubborn to admit he is wrong even if he does figure it out between now and then.