feelings as OW seems to be on way out

[forward]

we have seen C to try to figure out how to handle situation w/D.

X says he is very messed up psychologically w/the physical problems. I can tell; I also know that he is on intense prescription drugs. I have little help from him but that it's the best he can do now. Basically all responsibility has fallen to me at this point.

I find myself feeling bad--for some reason my confidence is hurting right now--confidence about my new R and in myself in general. Just the stress of things in general has been intense right now.