I hear ya, I'm not sure it's possible to change it. Also, it's a good reminder of where I started this journey. I was scared. No doubt about it.
I'm not really scared anymore...mostly just disappointed. Especially because I feel like I am changing for the better and becoming a happy person and father...it really appears that my W is going to miss out on the new me.
She is retreating into herself more and more...I got home from work the other day (just as she was going to work) and the house was a disaster. Toys all over the place, kitchen messing and dishes in the sink. She wasn't like this before.
She can still hurt me too, it's obvious that she does still hold my heart. She was talking to the kids this morning about getting her farm in a few months and taking the kids to disney. I am worried she's planning something, and I hate that she isn't talking...not telling me what's going through her mind. I believe that whatever she is planning won't happen until the New Year.
Me - 34 W - 33 M - 8 years T - 15 years D7, D5, D2 Bomb Nov 10/2010 "I'm not happy and INILWY" W Staying for the kids Mar 13/2011
