H's MLC - finding compassion and forgiveness

[Mila]

CW, Antonia, Glam, Being & GAG thank you my friends....it sure was an interesting day with H.

Just came back from the evening at H's dad. To recap, H picked me up, I made a spice cake to take to his dad because he loves my baking....H was happy that I did....then we stopped at a store to pick up some flowers and few other things to take to his dad. I was going to wait in the car but H invited me to come to the store with him, so we shopped together and then we were on the way....45 min drive. Conversation was easy, I was relaxed, we talked as if we were the happiest couple alive, and I totally managed to push the OW out of my head, H was relaxed and looked so happy that we had such a good time together. We laughed, joked a bit, talked about our college days, politics, D, just about anything, H was like the old H I remember. When we arrived to his dad's house we were parking and then he put his hand on my arm and said very warmly and sincerely "It's so good to see you", I replied "It's good to see you too".

His dad was shocked to see us come in together (H didn't tell him that I'm coming) and didn't know what was going on, since we behaved like a married couple the whole evening....at one point when I went to the kitchen I overhead his dad asking H if "anything changed" H replied "no nothing changed". H was very animated and talkative until about 1/2 before we left....then he just went quiet and I sensed that he wanted to leave.

Back in the car H was apologizing for being quiet at his dad's said "I'm just so tired". He also said "My dad was so happy to see you". We talked all the way back, very friendly and relaxed, we both avoided any Relationship talks, but talked just about everything else...He dropped me of at my house and as I was leaving the car again he put his hand on my arm and said "Thank you for coming with me" I said laughing "I would give up a hot Friday date for your dad at anytime, good night" and left....I don't know it just came out, I didn't really say that I had a hot date, I just said that I would give it up...oh well he can it interpret it any way he wants to LOL

Over all great day interacting with H, I was the Mila he remembers before the bomb...and I could really see that he missed us/me....

But of course that doesn't change anything, H is still on his journey and I'm on mine....