Well, unfortunately i am back......3 years later

[Ruikee]

This past wednesday, she showed up at the house unexpectedly for our babies speech therapy. The therapist looked at me with a smile and gave me a thumbs up when W stepped out of the room, I whispered she was probably going to give me some bad news. She kind of hung around for a few minutes, but we didnt talk, it was kind of weird, then she hugged the baby and left. Thursday afternoon, she called me to tell me the sitter was closed on Friday. I told her i had a drs appt, which i did. It was for an EMDR therapy session. She threw a huge guilt trip on me. "I dont see why you are being so inflexible, if you really loved your son as much as you claim, you would reschedule your appt. I really need that therapy, but I did end up rescheduling and taking my son who ended up being very sick that morning. I had to take him to the doctor for chest xrays etc. I almost broke down, it was so painful. Because this should be a team effort for our son, and i felt very alone handling it all on my own. ITs just me and my baby in this huge house all weekend....difficult when youre whole family should be together....