Things have gotten really ugly awfully fast. After my husband moved out 'temporarily' 2 weeks ago i thought it was a nice break, i was heartbroken but i thought it might do us some good.
I had a friend come over the other night to confirm that he knew that my husband and OW were having an affair.. i lost my mind and i was able to get into his email and accounts and find all their dirty correspondence with one another. I was up all night and had to take the day off work because i was devastated. I cut his business phone off , his credit card and i changed the locks on the house, I transferred what money i could out of his account because he hasn't been paying me for bills and was worried I'd be stuck. I then went to his work , dressed up, looked good and dropped a couple of the printed emails on his desk.. told him that he's no longer welcome in our home.
I wrote his parents a letter, i know i shouldn't have done that, it's mean but i wanted him to hurt like i am.. i want to send her husband all their emails too.. I called some of my friends and i'm just out to get blood.. i still can't get the image of the two of them out of my head.. i've lost 7lbs in 3 days.. that's the only good thing.. lol
How can i still love this man ? my heart was ripped out, she was my friend, i'm so hurting right now and i know i'm doing everything wrong and i know now that there is no chance for reconciliation, my family and friends and probably myself would never allow it.. I had a suspicion all along but now that it is confirmed I'm not sure if i could ever forgive him or get over this. How do people take their cheating spouses back ? how could you EVER trust them again ? is it worth it ?
i don't think i'm at the divorce busting stage anymore and just have to get used to the idea of the actual divorce.
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