in trying to GAL i am gonna try and go to the gym once a week if i can find a babysitter, its hard as have no one to turn too. H said this morning that he would watch lil un if i ever wont to be on my own, so i think i should take him up on this offer i now think even he is saying GAL :0) next week i am also planning to get my hair and nails done i think well no i know i need to take beeter care of my self and present myself at my best on nearly all occassions as i at the moment i dont really make an effort so its no wonder my H just sees me as a nagger and a moaner. i am even trying to look at my faults i.e. always moaning and complaining whilst at work and instead of just moaning and trying to convince others of my opinion i should try and offer a solution as it also doesnt make the situation seem so bad when you can see there is at least one solution. i have considered get anti-D's but as my mother is trying to get custody of our D i dont want that to show on my medical record as it could prove her case of me not being able to cope, but after googling i have read that there are self medicating herbs available from reputable outlets that act similarly to anti-d so will give them a try. Today hasnt been so bad i am constantly battling myself trying to keep a PMA as i suffer from automatic negative thinking, also i am not going to contact my H as i usually do instead i am going to deep clean the huse to keep myself busy (and hopefully be GAL) and wait for him to contact me, so here it goes!! :0)
