Positively moving forward

[awest1217]

It really isn't that bad. Just this week was. Next week is my normal routine until the weekend, which has just added a party and a 1 hour dress rehersal. This week...wish it would end...you would think with being that busy it would make the week fly, but it didn't.

Today I am in PAIN! I don't know what happened last night in bed, but this morning, my lower back right above my pelvic bone is killing me. I have to stand up and move slowly. It helps to put pressure on it. It feels like spasms, but I am not sure. It is getting worse as the day progresses so when I go home tonight I will be lying down. At least it is sunny today so no extra snow to shovel until...Saturday...

[newmama]

Maybe all the shoveling of snow tweaked your back! It is inevitable that when we get super busy, something like sickness or an injury is more likely to happen...our body's way of saying "slow down!" BUT HOW? right?

Take ibuprofen--you can take 4 at a time, every 3 hours and 40 minutes. Since you wouldn't take it every day like that, your body can handle it (and will appreciate the anti-inflammitory effect). I hope you feel better soon in time to get all of your crazy (and fun) things done!!

[awest1217]

Thanks NM. I have taken meds and I am heating it. I agree it was probably the shoveling, but the bad thing is we have more on its way. Probably another 3-5 inches over the weekend. My back never hurt last year, but I have been babying my abs since my hurt rib this summer(need to stop).

In good news, my car is fixed! It made my Thursday crazy, but now my car drives without stalling or me feeling a hitch everytime the car shifts. Yeah! Right before freezing rain and more snow. So relieved.

My physical went well and I am healthy, besides my sore back, but it happens to everyone. Just so thankful, and my street is being paved so the construction should be over by next week.

[mishka422]

YEAH!!!!!!!! So glad your car is fixed!

[awest1217]

Great day today! Christmas cookies then my school's Christmas concert, which was awesome. We have an awesome and talented music department and it shows. Now very tired, but I still need to clean a bit and sleep.

[newmama]

Glad to hear you are feeling better and are healthy (your physical)!

Nothing like those Christmas concerts and shows to get us in the spirit

So do you have good resistance when it comes to having the cookies around the house or do you gobble them up? For me, Christmas cookies are CRYPTONITE!!!

[mishka422]

For me, Christmas cookies are CRYPTONITE!!

I just call them crack.

[awest1217]

I have grown up in a house where homemade cookies are always around so it isn't a big deal for me. I will have one or two a day, but that is it.

Today was a 2 hour delay. It was nice because I was able to get a few things done around the house before I left for work. S got to sleep in (I still got up about the same time). All is well. I even got to work early and was able to get some extra stuff done here.

One big thing right now for me is I am definitely ready to move on relationship wise. I don't want to jump into anything, but I have been without H for almost 2 years, we haven't acted as a couple in 1 year so I have had my time. I am just ready to get out there I think. I really miss having the companionship. Someone to shovel the snow, to talk to when I get home, to cuddle next to when it is cold. I haven't had any of those things in 2 years. Finding a guy...difficult, but I do have all my friends looking so maybe by Valentine's day I will at least get to go on a date. I really think I am ready because when I talk about H, I don't get mad very often. I only get mad when he procrastinates making me spend more money on my L or when he is being stupid about S. When it comes to us or even him and OW, it doesn't bother me as much. Will I still feel angry if I see them together? Sure. But I don't think it will really bug me until she starts being around S (if that ever happens), and then it is about S and not H. I am almost over H so that is good. I even found a card I wrote to H years ago stuffed somewhere and it didn't even upset me. Definitely getting better.

[Lucky11too]

Sorry I have been so MIA! Wow, you have been busy!!! That's good though. It's a great way to get in the Christmas spirit. =)

Regarding finding a guy, I think that's great that you are ready to move on in a life past H and have a positive outlook again! =) At one point, I know you were ready to give up all hope on ever having an R an again. I'm sure people are going to tell you "to give it time" but you know you best, so you'll know when the time is right. Luckily with having S, it allows you to be more choosey. I think there will always be a soft (& sore!) spot in your heart for H, since you did love him, but that seems to decrease with time. Glad to hear you are doing so much better regarding H! It's been tough (and sure you'll have a few more ups and downs as this process wraps up), but you are getting thru this and "positively moving forward!" ;-)

[awest1217]

H text me yesterday to ask about S so I answered and asked about the property agreement. He said he wants joint legal custody (I was going for sole everything) and that he wants something saying that he would get overnight visitation at a later time. I am ok with both of those, but at the same time I am a little upset because he NEVER answers my texts when S is sick or helps with S is sick or as even tried to start having S overnight. I mean I know H is going to have S possibly overnight sometime soon, but the joint legal would mean he would need to be a little more available. I guess I just want him to step it up if we are going to put joint legal on the documents. NOt that it is going to change anything. I still have sole physical custody and the legal part isn't a big deal. Otherwise he is good on everything else, but he should be because he doesn't owe me a dime.

I then asked when he would talk to my L or if he was getting one. He said he would get one so the documentation said what he wanted. I said he could just tell my L and she would write it in the way he wants. I again asked when because he cost me "a bunch" to get the subpeona since he dragged his feet. He said he would pay since it was his fault and said was like what "$20-50". I said no, I wouldn't complain about that. It has cost me $500. He then said "I can't pay that". I let him know that I didn't ask him to pay, he offered, and to just be conscience that he is wasting my money not his. Also I said a few other mean things because I am tired of his stupidity and selfishness. I said I don't understand how I have money, but he doesn't considering our difference in bills (OW and he must be paying for a place together and it is costing him a lot more than expected because she is more high maintenance than I am. Plus the rent would be higher because she has two cats). Either way I told him to just be aware and get this done. He said he would be done by the first of the year. I also put something in about how this Friday and how now it means nothing. I finally ended with that none of this was my idea and I am paying for it so the least he can do is get everything done. Happy Anniversary to H, I gave him the most expensive anniversary present this year...our D.

MIL also e-mailed me. I sent her a message about S's program and they are going to be out of town (you would think H would have told them...), but she thanked me for keeping them involved.

I am still doing well. The D will be over soon, but for the first time in a long time I just let H know exactly how I felt. I let him know that I am upset and why. I also stood my ground. I wasn't all nice and cordial like I normally am. I just told it how it is. I know it might seem mean, but sometimes it is what is necessary.