I failled horribly...

[FellOnBlackDays]

Thanks for the kind words. Yes, after the incident, I realized there were about 100 other ways I could have played off her sudden appearance in the house. But, I just froze. We were once so in love, I can barely put it to words. Now, we are like two total strangers. This week, she completely blocked me on Facebook. All I can see is her profile picture. I just can't believe how cold she is to me. I am completely astounded and devastated.

As far as I know, there is not another man involved at this time. But, since I go weeks without talking to her or seeing her, I really don't know. I do know this much, I do want her back. But if she slept with OM, we are FINISHED. That is one sin that I cannot forgive or forget. Actually, I am quite certain the divorce will be really nasty if she strayed...

I did do one thing this week that may not have been the best move. But, I wanted to do it to feel a bit better about my position in the situation. In her under-handed, weasel-like haste to grab all her stuff and move out while I was at a BBQ, she left various things behind. I found two boxes, filled the boxes with some of her stuff and showed up on her parents' doorstep unannounced. I played it cool. I was very nice to them and explained to my father-in-law that I had been doing some "cleaning." I also told him that I though she might want this stuff. He looked confused, but was pleasant (Later that night, we shared a beer at a local sports bar. He still thinks the world of me and wants me to work it out with his daughter). He took the stuff in and I left with a smile on my face. I know her mother probably immediately ran to the phone and called her to let her know what I did. I hope it made her nervous. This is the first time in two months that I have fought back in any way. Some have told me my actions were unwise, but I don't care. I wanted to "put a shot across her bow" just to let her know I can protect myself in this situation. I know it was petty, but she now knows that I too can walk away from this thing. She no longer has complete and total control. How do you like me now, sweetheart? Why do couples have to end up like this???

Thanks for the support. Keep it coming!!!

Fellonblackdays