I know I probably sound like a broken record, always asking the same questions: "is this a good sign?" "am I doing the right thing?" I'm just so lost and losing hope. I feel like things are going pretty well between us for the most part, but every now and then I get the sense that she's just tolerating me.

What signs should I be looking for that things are looking up? We haven't talked about the R or a D in 3 wks. Originally, she told me not to move out until after christmas. That day is quickly approaching and I'm not sure how to deal with it when it comes. When she brings it up,if she still wants a separation, do I go along with what she wants without argument and move out? Or do I mention anything about still trying to save our M? I know this is purely hypothetical but I can't help but worry.

This waiting and "acting as if" is just killing me! I don't know how much longer I can do this.

M:28
W:28
Together:13yrs
high school sweethearts
Married:2
currently filing
living separately