been there. A WAS doesn't usually give clear messages (except for the fact that she/he left). Read carefully between the lines when they talk. The message is there, but in code. If she wanted to be there, she would be there. If not, then she's not. In some cases it can work out, but it won't be on your schedule ever again.
Life is very precious. Create you own while you try to repair the relationship with the WAS. Happiness will come in very small increments but eventually you will be ok again.
However, you will most likely, if you do repair, be looking over your shoulder every day wondering when the shoe will drop again. That's the tough part.
