just called H to ask about skating as i would have to leave work now, he's just cold on the phone and says "not going okay" i say okay and he puts down the phone. Just feel like crying my eyes out right now he knows how much i love skating and i asked him weeks ago even if we have problems to not let it affect us skating but as per usual what i say falls on deaf ears, i feel he doesnt care as he can get to go during his work breaks so isnt bothered one bit but it just feels to me that he never takes me into consideration, so going to be an eventful night tonight then, i dont want to go home but have no were else to go :0(
