Last night pushed him further away again, why cant i communicate better (hind sight how i love you)had a big argument again for 3 hrs, ostly me talking sorry moaning and crying and swearing and shouting, i just feel so over emotional i just want to scream and yet i know that screaming gets me no were. I want us to spend more to together have been feeling extremely low and could do with a hug, but he just wants to play computer all night then i fall asleep on my own as i do every night. Last night felt very alone he had the day off but did nothing but play computer whilst i was home, he says if i want to spend time with him i should watch him play, thing is i usually do and enjoy watching him play his computer games but this one he is playing bores the heck out of me cant watch it for more then a couple of minutes without it annoying me, so went upstairs hoping he would wonder what i'm up to and follow. 2 hours later and he is still playing and on the interenet, i'm feeling very tired and annoyed at waiting for him so i slam the bedroom door (i knew this would get his attention) he comes storming into the bedroom swears at me for being a child and storms back off. I then storm downstairs and start arguing with him when all i really wanted was his attention and for him to ask me what was wrong but instead we both have our backs up and go no were for 3hrs.
In hindsight i shouldn't have slammed the door and certainly shouldn't have stormed after him.
The conversation ended with him saying we are going no were just going in circles and there is no point carrying on this R, i'm heart broken and crushed, i go to bed and cry myself to sleep.
