Went to S's game tonight. H walks in late - walks by me - we acknowledge each other then he goes sits by himself. Team wins - S doesn't shoot well but plays well. H tells him that he would like to have breakfast with him to go over the game??!!! I wanted to say - "be a father first rather than a coach". But I didn't.
I am changing. Not sure why - but it feels pretty good. I am finding some peace. Need to lose some weight - but not beating myself up. Realizing that I would NEVER give up this family - together we are amazing. H is missing out big time!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time