Thanks. I am really trying to stay optimistic. Good news, last night H and I had dinner at one of our favorite places. He starts telling me he is concerned for his health as he has been losing weight (doesnt need to) and sleep has been fleeting for some time. Also, his exhaustion is apparent. He says he wants to see his MD for a physical. This is HUGH for H as this has only happened 1 other time in our 10 years together and it was at my provocation. I asked him if he thought his issues were physical and or emotional. He say " I dont know, really". Again, HUGH for this man. However, I know he may very well change his mind in a heartbeat.So I am not holding out for it. But just the awareness after so much cloudy stuff, I think he is moving forward. I offered to make a luch for him thiss AM, which I haven't been doing since August as I have felt and said as much to him " If Im not going to be a real wife, then I'm not going to play one". He was very grateful and gave me a kiss and hug. Again I see this as cautious progress.
