I know you may fnd it strange that i have found my way here to a db site, i have only been M for 2 months but it hasnt been an easy 2 months not by a long shot. We have been T nearly 8 years and it has felt like a M without the full committment we have a D2 (going on 12). Our M did not go well to be honest it was a comlete disaster and i am not exaggerating here how we still got M i never know but we did :0) since then however our R has been going downhill, as a result of our M my family has diserted me and harrasing us, constant txt messages, phone calls emails, banging the door, breaking windows, threats and now the straw that broke the camels (H) back a solicitors letter starting legal proceedings. I will at some point go into all of this but i am here to save my M and make my R work. I am going to tell you something i have never admitted to my H nor anyone, i do luv my H very much and do want to spend the rest of my life with him, i cannot imagine myself with anyone else but i feel that these feelings could be what is killing our R.
Present day, after recieveing the solicitor letter my H said whilst getting ready for work he loves me but this harrassment is never gonna stop so he is leaving me. He took some things with him and left to go to work, now i know he has a short temperment and it doesnt take much to push him to the edge very quickly but the sad thing is my family know this too and i think they wanted us to split up (once you know the story about the wedding day you will understand why i think they didnt even want me to get married) i am at my wits end i don’t want this especially with everything that is going on with my family and the constant harrassment, i hate my job but need the money so cant leave yet as i have been very poorly so my sick record is really bad i dont think anyone will employ me so i feel like i am in a catch 22, i could have done with more affection from my WAS so now have reconnected with an ex for a bit of fun but it doesnt even feel fun i am so confused, lonely and scared,to be seperated after only 2 months of M i feel such a failure
