Gutwrenching- I know I have not often posted on your thread, but I just wanted you to know that I have been following it for a while. Since finding out in June about my h, reading your thread has provided me with a lot of strength. And it is b/c of you and the way that you have handled yourself in all of this. I know what you are going through right now, as my sitch was similar - were reconciling and he was not able to break it off. I know that the next few months, years - whichever way things go- are going to be extremely difficult for you and your family. But the kind of person that you are shines through, many people have picked it up from reading your thread and commented on this. I am confident that because of this you are going to have wonderful things in your life. Take are rest, give yourself a break for awhile, put it in God's hands and know that somehow you are going to be ok. You can do this with her in the house if you want to keep everyone together for Christmas or you can do it without her in the house if this is the approach that you want to take. But give yourself a break from her for awhile. You are an amazing person and your life to come will be full of good things.
