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My divorce was final yesterday. Damn it's been one hell of a year. I can't believe I was ok. It actually was a very nice day...and night. I felt a weird sense of peace that I can't explain. Maybe God finally answered my prayer - to stop loving my ex husband. I hate to say it was a numb feeling because it wasn't. I was expecting to be very sad but the feeling never came.

My daughter's kitten died two days before. It just seems my family has been hit with so much emotional and financial devastation all because of the actions of one. I tried to save the kitty but I couldn't see her suffer so I put her to sleep. My daughter held her paw the entire time. She cried so sadly I wanted to die. All I could think is why does my ex husband get to escape all the pain? He never has to see or hear any of it.

That morning I was feeling so awful and cried all day about the kitten. That little kitty brought a lot of smiles to our household and was definately a good distraction for my daughter. It was awful to see her so distraught. She has felt so abandoned by her dad. It's just another thing she loved that is gone.

We are doing better about kitty and realize she is not suffering anymore. She literally got sick overnight. She was diagnosed with two major feline diseases.

I want to thank EVERYONE for all of your support. I will hang around the "surviving the big divorce" area and still offer my thoughts and support to others in the forum. I wouldn't have been able to go through this without you guys.
Max - you my friend - no words for how you helped me.

Luv is not luvless anymore