CajunRose-

Thank you for all of this... I get more out of hearing how people are coping and finding things to give them direction then I do when reading all of my self help books. I have been so lost - realized H has been gone a month. I think it must be something with us ladies that have these small babies so close to age. Do we end up taking on so much that we forget who we are only to be awaken by our H walking away

Cajun Rose do you expect another women? My husband denies it and blames my fun-sucking controlling ways as our problem and why I accuse him of an affair. I dont think I even want to know what he is doing at the bars and dinners --- today he called he overdrafted the bank account that he changed the password on so I cant access... why do I save him the way I do - I am feeling more like a door mat then a strong women