Sue, You are right I know. I am working on me. The days are better, I am much better but I still want so much more. Now that I know and understand what all has transpired between us I know uneqivilacally (sp?) that we can resolve our problems -and that one person can lead the way. But we are not even in the same house, city, or state so .... I am just impatient and needing (wanting) some more direct positive feedback from SO that OK, no D, but we do have things to work on so we will progress that way. You saw her letter from Mon. And yes, I know its not even a week yet and there are (hopefully) many little positive signs. We are talking easier, a little more open (still cautiosuly though), happier, etc. That is a start. I am just wanting the whole fairy tale. Its sad, it hard. I brought on myself by not finding these things out and listening (understanding) sooner. I have come so far so quickly -and still have a long ways to go -I am just wishing and wanting everything from the other side to progress that way also. It will be a very lonely holidays & NY Eve and that will be a hard and bitter pill to swallow in the future if (when) we get back together. Well time to go run and be with the Big Guy! Rob
