I just want to say I'm sorry for what you're going through but that the last thing you should worry about is how you're going to have enough strength to deal with this. You will have the strength. All of the people here are living proof of that.

One of my close friends had a bad breakup right before their wedding with a guy she'd been with for 17 years. She went to 3 counseling appointments, quit them, then started to drink heavily. She held down a job, and she eventually stopped, but she spent a solid year drinking and in deep depression, crying every night alone in her apartment.

Every time she talks to me she says she wish she had tried to get help like I have done and she says how she is "amazed" at my progress and emotional health. The one thing she and I did differently was I came here, and I'm still in counseling (6 months now) and that has made all the difference in the world.

So please don't think for a moment that you don't have the strength. You already proved you have strength by coming here. Keep posting.


M45
Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11
Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy
"Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying