Working on acceptance and forgiveness

[PEI]

I am angry that I wasted so much energy last week trying to figure out how to or whether to accept my H's friendship gestures.

Why are you angry? Did you not respond in a way that was GENUINE and TRUE to who YOU are ... without expectation (*cough ... ummm apparently not *cough)? Anger is a choice ... and for me, usually an indicator that maybe I wasn't quite real with myself. IE, maybe I said I did not have an expectation when really I did.

I just feel like I'm wasting energy trying to hang on to wanting him to "see the light" and come back. I don't think there is a snowball's chance in hell of it ever happening.

Here's the meat of it ... we talk about moving forward and most of us do a really good job of GALing and 180s etc. But this is where we get stuck. Looking back at them. Wanting something from them. My very wise, very good friend Grit posted this to you and I think it's worth pondering... again ...

There is a little frustration a little anger.

The journey is not over yet for you I might suggest. Can you do this without regret?

Without it being a reaction to what H did or did not do?

When it is for YOU, you are free from that emotion.

You are moving through this. Trust yourself. Trust this process.

Keep diggin' girl ...

PEI