Bad news today.

I just learned my H has broken his NC with OW, on the pretext of a work related issue. No wonder I was suspicious (see my post before this).

I feel so down and sad. I hope OW is steadfast in her resolve and takes it at face value, or refuse to be used.

D11 left today for school camp, will be gone for 4 days, and H was so in a rush that he did not even say bye to her. She texted me about it, obviously feeling bad. He also has been really short tempered to both me and D. Thats really unusual as he has always been sweet to D ever since, even during the height of the A, even when he was irritable to me.

I did something not too DB today, in response to what happened. This kind of actions though seemed to work before, so I am taking a chance. I wrote him an email, acknowledging that this is a hard time for him, appreciating his taking care of us (he has been cooking our meals, bought a tree, etc.still being the responsible father and husband), his leadership of the family, letting him know that although I am strong my role is still that of the follower, and letting him know that I was willing to communicate and listen to his issues. I also reassured him of my friendship and unconditional love.

Help me .... I need some cheering up and hope. My urge to just give up is getting stronger.


Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18
Bomb: 6/26/10
EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ???
11/5/11 Retrouvaille
Finally piecing....
Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go